I really wish we could go back through the moments in our lives and watch it like a movie so that we can heal from the wounds that certain moments or people and situations carried with us to this point. I would also like this so that I can go back a see the interactions with the people that I really miss too. We carry these memories with us (usually from childhood) and they may not be accurate. We could be remembering them differently than they truly were. If we were a small child and are now a grown adult, our child eyes and minds are different now than they were then; our perception of certain situations may be different looking at them through a mature lens.
I write this on approach to the New Moon in Cancer. Cancer resides in the 4th Astrological House of the Mother/Father, the Home, our Roots and Ancestors, the Nest and our Nurturing. Cancer is Ruled by the Moon, therefore, this New Moon comes Home. The Sun and Moon in Cancer will be Squaring Chiron The Great Teacher and Wounded Healer in Aries, which could bring up childhood wounds of the Self and surrounding the way we were or were not loved and acknowledged. The same Sun and Moon opposes Pluto in Capricorn’s foundation, asking us now to realize the only love an validation that is required is that of ourselves and not from anything or any person in the outer world. Try to discover a new way of looking at these situations that are still lingering deep down in our cells and see if you can release some of that during this phase. It also helps to see others as they are and that what we may view from the place of the victim really had little to do with us personally and more about the person that committed the wounding.
I used to be very needy when I was younger. Always looking outside of myself for validation and love. My family never gave me what I really felt like I needed, they were never available to support and acknowledge me. Therefore, I learned to love myself and give back to myself what I may have perceived that was missing. Validation for my accomplishments had to come from myself; I needed to be happy with ME and with what I was doing or did. It took many decades to stop over achieving as a mean to get the familial recognition that I was always seeking. Now I do whatever makes me happy. It also makes me a better person for the people that are in my life because I do not require their approval or applause. Everything I do now is for my own pleasure. That is not to say that I no longer carry some wounds; sure I do, but I logically understand that none of that had to do with me and certain people, behaviors, situations that appear similar will trigger those same feelings; I respond differently though. The moral here is this Moon and the Aspects can bring up those little dust bunnies of emotion that we swept under the rug and deep into our subconscious; we may have some layers that need to be addressed, cleaned up, and looked at so that we can do some healing. Those places will show us where we need to apply some extra self-love and self-nurturing over the course of the next few months.
