Here we are, in the midst of a world pandemic; my thoughts and my personal experience have given me a lot of time to ponder, and this is no April Fool’s.
It is so quiet. So peacefully quiet. Eerily quiet. No cars coming up and down my street; people are strolling. Birds are tweeting, squirrels are scurrying. Hey, I have not heard an airplane either in quite some time. Reminds me, dare I say, of 9-11-2001. When time and my country seemed to stop. A time when we all came together, to love and support those around us. Yes, these times are different, but we can still be calm, kind, smart and loving.
In the midst of a world pandemic, here I am, coming to you, with my thoughts, my personal account and some mindful thoughts to get us through uncertain times. This is not a time to panic. Fear lowers the immune system and causes humans to do crazy things. We are all experiencing events that many of us have never experienced before in our lifetime and hopefully never will have to again. There is so much media, an over load; supplying advice and warnings, closures, shortages, increasing numbers of new cases, recovering cases, death and most of this information is only creating more insecurity, fear and panic. The calmer and more centered we remain will get us through this and help those around us that need us right now, our friends, family, neighbors and community. With that being said, as of today, I have been home for 20 days with a fever, body aches, extreme fatigue, one day of a sore throat, chest tightness and concern. Yes, concern, not fear, so, take it from me, one that may have a “reason” to panic, one that may have a “reason” to fear, one that has a compromised immune system and I am not freaking out, instead, I am using this as an opportunity to slow down, nurture myself back to health, rest, rejuvenate and enjoy the beautiful weather, binge watch some good shows, eat well, play with my animals, chat with friends.
When the news of this broke from China, my first thought was “This was engineered to stop the riots in Hong Kong” and that it possibly got out of hand. It worked. The streets overflowing with protestors were cleared. But, like previous year’s “illnesses” coming out of China, the viruses spread. Spread through travel and spread through the air. As Covid-19 spread, I thought, it is most likely airborne, and it will only be a matter of time before it is worldwide. In an effort to remain unruffled, I researched flu statistics and saw the exorbitant figures of annual deaths from the flu virus and surmised we would all be o.k. as 650,000 deaths occur worldwide and we do not hear about those numbers; this however, is before the extent of severe or critical symptoms were known.
I do have to wonder though how much of this is REAL. I am not discounting that there is a virus floating around amongst us, but when I did my research, and as a journalist I research, I found astounding mortality rates outside of a pandemic. New York alone sees nearly 156,000 deaths per year and the World nearly 60 million per year. This makes me wonder how much of THIS is to create fear and corruption. We will never know, but a lot of this could very well possibly be a form of World Order Control. Just think about that for a moment. Here are some informative links:
https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/fastats/state-and-territorial-data.htm
https://ourworldindata.org/births-and-deaths
https://www.worldometers.info/
CAPRICORN STELLIUM:
JUPITER IN CAPRICORN- Back in November 2019, I was considering how the move of Jupiter from his home Sign of Sagittarius in Capricorn would affect the world as historically, the last time Jupiter was in Capricorn (2007-2008) we saw a near collapse of our global economy. Capricorn rules our money, our governmental systems, business and banking. I and many an Astrologer could not imagine how this configuration of the planets would mirror the past. 1972 saw Jupiter in Capricorn. I was only 7 years old, but I vaguely remember gasoline being rationed in the United States and incredibly long line waiting for gas. Coming out of World War II in the 40’s or the Great Depression in the 30’s also had a bitter taste of Jupiter in Capricorn. So it befuddled many of us when the World was at the height of the most prominent economy, how, just how, could it crash… AND here we are! Coming out of these times, we see the biggest boost economically and relief comes; it does, just be patient. Patience during times like this can seem like an eternity. On January 12th, when Jupiter, Saturn and Pluto aligned in their Grand Conjunction, we knew something historical was supposed to happen. It came and went to the blink of an eye. It was the silent bomb that went off, bringing together Zeus, Kronos and Hades to a party they drank and laughed and said “Watch now what happens!”
Day 8- I am still self-quarantined. My anxiety grows with the uncertainty and lack of available tests. I am not old enough; my fever is not high enough and I do not know for sure if I had direct contact with anyone who is infected. The Governor of Pennsylvania enacts a shelter in place stay at home order and social distancing, yet my neighbors have 20 people and their children over for a party that lasted from 3:00 p.m. until nearly 2:00 a.m. despite many visits from the local police. This enrages me as a prime example that people are acting as though they are on Spring Break with most businesses shut down. This risks me and my entire family and others in our community. It is so disrespectful, and we are all seeing this blatant disrespect all over the world. If this is real and as serious as it is being reported, we need to take heed.
Day 10- I cannot breathe, I still have a fever and a cough, I am extremely fatigued. I continue to work my day job, because I have to. I have obligations and a boss that is unrelenting. I call my primary care physician’s office. I am put on hold and asked to wait for a nurse. After a 30 minute wait I am asked to describe my symptoms. The nurse suggests a telemed appointment with my Doctor so he can determine next course of action; 10:45 appointment set. 2:45, Doctor calls for telemed appointment, said that my symptoms and my age are not sever enough to be tested for Covid-19 and prescribes azithromycin Z-Pack and instructions to use my Albuterol inhaler. He suggested steroids, but I declined as I read that steroids exacerbate the Covid-19 virus and the not knowing made me cautious. Five day treatment.
Day 14- Yay, fever is gone, yet I am still so tired.
Day 15 and 16- fever has returned. My chest is worse, my breathing is worse. I contemplate driving the 24.6 miles to a stadium in Philadelphia to be tested as it is now eligible for those 50 and older that have fever and symptoms. Pennsylvania is on lock down and I risk being pulled over, traveling so far away from home, I am too weak to drive that far and decide to wait another day. If I don’t improve I will call my Doctor. My fears arise as I need groceries and food for my animals, yet I risk getting other people sick and if I do not have the virus, I risk contracting it every time I leave my home.
Day 17 found me unable to catch a breath after walking up a flight of stairs. I panicked and grabbed my Albuterol inhaler and took two long dragging puffs. The burn ran down through my lungs opening and expanding them and allowing me to get air. It felt like I was drowning. I called my primary care physician’s office. Doc was off and I was asked to hold for a nurse. After a 15 minute hold, I was asked to describe my symptoms, she tells me that she cannot rule out Covid-19 and I should go directly to the Emergency Room of the hospital. I ask should I call, will they call, what do I do? The nurse says I do not know what the procedures are, just go. Being a sensible person that has been paying attention to the news reports, I call the “ER” and I am instructed to call them once I arrive in the parking lot and they will come out and dress me in protective gear (for their protection) and escort me into the hospital. They we very efficient and quick with all of the different tests they had to run and rule out before being approved for Covid-19 testing. I had 12 vials of blood drawn, two nasal swabs for flu and chest x-rays to view the infection in my chest. I received IV fluids and nice warm blankets. After several hours of waiting received two more nasal swabs for the Covid-19 testing. The flu swabs go fairly high up in the nasal cavity, but the Covid-19 test was far much more uncomfortable. I had to lean my head back as far as it would go, and I swear she tickled my tonsils with the nasal swab. It had a chemical antiseptic taste and smell to it that I will not soon forget. The Doctor came in and explained everything to me, gave me meds and instructions and told me to wait 2-7 days for the results. He said “To be honest with you, these results are taking a long time, labs are very backed up, if you do not hear from anyone in 7 days, call you primary care physician and ask them to obtain the results.” I most likely will receive a call if I am positive, but probably not if I am negative. On the bright side, if I am positive and build up antibodies, then I will be safe to leave my home after quarantine!
Day 18- Friends bring groceries and goodies! I love my friends. Flowers, rotisserie chicken, coffee, juice, water, cookies and toilet paper! Ceremonial grade cacao with antioxidants has given me a surreal boost and helped me to crawl out of my bed!
Day 19- Sunshine! Oh, how the sunshine feels delicious.
So, I wait, I wait with fever and sever fatigue, I wait as the world continues to spin around me outside, do I even know what day it is? Have any of you noticed that you have lost time? Time and date no longer have much meaning as we all wait. I feel safe and comfy in my home; I may never leave. Groceries and supplies on mail and delivery order, albeit they will take two weeks to get here, but they are coming. As long as I don’t leave the confines of my safety and property, I won’t experience pandemic anxiety.